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Ok, welcome to the newer, "privater" blog. Just in case... now only the coolest people can read what I'm writing. heheh.
Dag nabbit! Why do I keep getting sick? What is this? I woke up this am with a HORRIBLE headache, and sore all over. I have no idea why, I mean I've slept most of the weekend away, and even though I was out late 2 nights, I still more than made up for it. Ugh. I've had it with this.
Uh, what else. I spent till the wee hours of the morning Sat night/Sunday am with Justin and 2 of his hs buddies, and then Sunday night till about midnight with him, Robin, Mike and various others carving pumpkins and bobbing for apples and stuff. Complete with Amy and Katherine type prodding from Robin! ;-) LOL. Mike was asking me what Justin and I did Saturday night, and he said something like "Man, he's always got to have other people around", and I said yeah, I've noticed that, and both Mike & Robin said it's cuz he's nervous. Aww, how cute! But it's time to get over the nervousness! lol. No, it's cute, I totally understand, but boys are not posed to be nervous. I supposed that's some double standard I'm invoking, but that's just how I see it. Perhaps I will have to make myself more obvious or something. Robin asked us when we were going out again, and he was like "well, it's up to her since she has to work a million and a half hours next weekend". So, perhaps if it's up to me, I can convince him to get his butt up here and hang out Saturday after the game. When we left Robin & MIkes Sunday night, he asked if it was ok if he called me during the week, how cute is that? Of course I said "YES! I'll be looking forward to it". Baby steps.. I guess I'm just used to guys who put themselves right out there. Who knows.
So when we were out Saturday night, his friends were waiting outside a bar in downtown Nashville and when we walked up they were like "Well, look at Justin showing up with the cute girl!" And one of them was trying to "sign" something to me over Justin's head at one point, but I didn't get what he was saying, something about the 2 of us, I guess. I wonder what he told them, like who I was when he told them I was coming along. They knew I was coming in advance, cuz when he was talking to them on the phone he kept saying "yeah, we'll be there soon". So, I wonder how he described me to them... interesting. Then after he made sure I was ok to drive back to Clarksville that late, he tells me to call as soon as I get back so he knows I made it ok. Aww, how sweet!! Sunday night, during the Halloween festivities, Paul came. He called Robin a while before he came, and wanted to talk to Justin, and Robin was making strange facial expressions at him, I couldn't tell what they were talking about. But, Mike & Robin made several comments while Paul was out of the room like "well, now that Paul's not here, when are you 2 going out again, what's the deal". And, Paul said something about "justin do this for your woman" So I'm not sure what that's about. But, he's after Robin's cousin that goes to Belmont, so maybe he's over it now.
The other night, when I got home at like 3 am, David was online and IMs me "What are you still doing up?" So, I told him I had just gotten back from Nashville with Justin and then asked him what he was doing.. and he tells me he just took a friend home, so I asked more questions and found out it was his ex from like 3 years ago, Caren. So, I was asking what was going on with that, cuz he's decided he's in love with her again, but she's apparantly happy with her current bf. So, he proceeded to tell me all that was going on with that, and then halfway into it, he asks "do you really want to hear all this" and I said "I don't really care, if you want to tell me, whatever". So, he tells me blah blah blah, she kissed him but then told him nothing could happen cuz she's really happy where she is now, bad timing, they've missed each other. And, I'm happy to report, that I had no negative reaction what-so-ever. It didn't bug me, piss me off, upset me, or ANYTHING. I've been kind of thinking that it wouldn't, cuz he's mentioned other girls before, but I totally don't care. I have no desire to ever even think about us getting back together, or not wanting him to date anyone else, nothing. I could care less who he's with and what he's doing with them. That's such a nice feeling. He's supposed to be coming to Nashville next weekend, and wants me to come meet up with him, but I'm not sure if I'll have time with all the homecoming stuff, and Justin get's priority over him, so if I can get him to come up to Clarksville and hang out Saturday night, then screw David. =) I do, however want to see him soon. Just to see him face to face and see if it feels worth it to continue working on being friends. I am 99.9% sure that I will have no reaction when I see him either.. which is why I think I'm looking forward to it. I know he's nervous, Robin has told me that much. But, tough for him. It's nice to have that control. Now he's the one that wants to see me, and I hold the control. hahahaha.
Anyway. So, I think it's safe to say that I am 100% over this, finally & officially. I look forward, if he's capable of it, to being friends and talking about stuff and seeing each other randomly, and hanging out like I do with other friends. So, we'll see.
Happy day. Needless to say I wasn't super productive with all my days off. I slept till at least noon every day, and then putzed around for a while and then ended up going out. Ack. So I have to finish my test review questions so I can study when I get home from working tonight. I think tonight is War of the Wings and Chariot Races, ooh fun!
Dag nabbit! Why do I keep getting sick? What is this? I woke up this am with a HORRIBLE headache, and sore all over. I have no idea why, I mean I've slept most of the weekend away, and even though I was out late 2 nights, I still more than made up for it. Ugh. I've had it with this.
Uh, what else. I spent till the wee hours of the morning Sat night/Sunday am with Justin and 2 of his hs buddies, and then Sunday night till about midnight with him, Robin, Mike and various others carving pumpkins and bobbing for apples and stuff. Complete with Amy and Katherine type prodding from Robin! ;-) LOL. Mike was asking me what Justin and I did Saturday night, and he said something like "Man, he's always got to have other people around", and I said yeah, I've noticed that, and both Mike & Robin said it's cuz he's nervous. Aww, how cute! But it's time to get over the nervousness! lol. No, it's cute, I totally understand, but boys are not posed to be nervous. I supposed that's some double standard I'm invoking, but that's just how I see it. Perhaps I will have to make myself more obvious or something. Robin asked us when we were going out again, and he was like "well, it's up to her since she has to work a million and a half hours next weekend". So, perhaps if it's up to me, I can convince him to get his butt up here and hang out Saturday after the game. When we left Robin & MIkes Sunday night, he asked if it was ok if he called me during the week, how cute is that? Of course I said "YES! I'll be looking forward to it". Baby steps.. I guess I'm just used to guys who put themselves right out there. Who knows.
So when we were out Saturday night, his friends were waiting outside a bar in downtown Nashville and when we walked up they were like "Well, look at Justin showing up with the cute girl!" And one of them was trying to "sign" something to me over Justin's head at one point, but I didn't get what he was saying, something about the 2 of us, I guess. I wonder what he told them, like who I was when he told them I was coming along. They knew I was coming in advance, cuz when he was talking to them on the phone he kept saying "yeah, we'll be there soon". So, I wonder how he described me to them... interesting. Then after he made sure I was ok to drive back to Clarksville that late, he tells me to call as soon as I get back so he knows I made it ok. Aww, how sweet!! Sunday night, during the Halloween festivities, Paul came. He called Robin a while before he came, and wanted to talk to Justin, and Robin was making strange facial expressions at him, I couldn't tell what they were talking about. But, Mike & Robin made several comments while Paul was out of the room like "well, now that Paul's not here, when are you 2 going out again, what's the deal". And, Paul said something about "justin do this for your woman" So I'm not sure what that's about. But, he's after Robin's cousin that goes to Belmont, so maybe he's over it now.
The other night, when I got home at like 3 am, David was online and IMs me "What are you still doing up?" So, I told him I had just gotten back from Nashville with Justin and then asked him what he was doing.. and he tells me he just took a friend home, so I asked more questions and found out it was his ex from like 3 years ago, Caren. So, I was asking what was going on with that, cuz he's decided he's in love with her again, but she's apparantly happy with her current bf. So, he proceeded to tell me all that was going on with that, and then halfway into it, he asks "do you really want to hear all this" and I said "I don't really care, if you want to tell me, whatever". So, he tells me blah blah blah, she kissed him but then told him nothing could happen cuz she's really happy where she is now, bad timing, they've missed each other. And, I'm happy to report, that I had no negative reaction what-so-ever. It didn't bug me, piss me off, upset me, or ANYTHING. I've been kind of thinking that it wouldn't, cuz he's mentioned other girls before, but I totally don't care. I have no desire to ever even think about us getting back together, or not wanting him to date anyone else, nothing. I could care less who he's with and what he's doing with them. That's such a nice feeling. He's supposed to be coming to Nashville next weekend, and wants me to come meet up with him, but I'm not sure if I'll have time with all the homecoming stuff, and Justin get's priority over him, so if I can get him to come up to Clarksville and hang out Saturday night, then screw David. =) I do, however want to see him soon. Just to see him face to face and see if it feels worth it to continue working on being friends. I am 99.9% sure that I will have no reaction when I see him either.. which is why I think I'm looking forward to it. I know he's nervous, Robin has told me that much. But, tough for him. It's nice to have that control. Now he's the one that wants to see me, and I hold the control. hahahaha.
Anyway. So, I think it's safe to say that I am 100% over this, finally & officially. I look forward, if he's capable of it, to being friends and talking about stuff and seeing each other randomly, and hanging out like I do with other friends. So, we'll see.
Happy day. Needless to say I wasn't super productive with all my days off. I slept till at least noon every day, and then putzed around for a while and then ended up going out. Ack. So I have to finish my test review questions so I can study when I get home from working tonight. I think tonight is War of the Wings and Chariot Races, ooh fun!
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